The Fear We Share

It surprises you and hits you when you least expect it to
You were so blind to it because the happiness and excitement of falling in love took over. Yet you suddenly realize it when it is right there in front of you.

You are afraid of loosing someone you love again. The feeling you felt thinking that everything was finally moving right along and you had so many great plans for your future and then before you knew it that future was destroyed by a heart attack. You shut down and push love away. You never feel the same inside and you never look at happiness the same.

Then one day a simple message comes across your screen and you find yourself enjoying the conversation. You find yourself feeling all of those feelings you felt before you experienced such a painful loss. Then the fear creeps back in wearing a different shade and tempting you to run until you realize that this new person has a different fear.

He never imagined falling for you so soon. It was such a breath of fresh air just to have a decent conversation for a change. Then before he knew it he was saying "I love you." Now his entire way of life is changing right before his eyes. He's making hard decisions in his mind because he is so new at this. But he loves you enough to think about the future.

His life has always been devoted to the 4 lives he brought into this world and the family that loves him dearly. This new experience could change all of that if he doesn't handle this right.

You sit and look at the fact that you're just scared of loving someone again then you weigh that with his fear of loosing his entire family and you realize that you can handle your burden and help carry his.

You both discuss your fears and then you find that you have so much love for each other that you both can face whatever life may bring your way. You reassure him that you are there no matter what. You let him know that you will stand by him in anyway he needs and he reassures you that he loves you and that you shouldn't be afraid to fall in love again. He reminds you of the life you've always wanted and the family you wanted to build.

Those happy feelings, those tender moments, those stolen kisses, those times of love making, sharing emotions and being lost into one another are there and you are happy that you didn't run from them. You are stronger than before and it's because you experienced those things. You won't take him for granted and you won't let a day go by without telling him how much you love him. You won't allow distractions to stop you from loving him and being there for him.

There are so many things you have in common, then there are things you don't agree on but you can certainly say that fear is the most important thing you share. Life couldn't teach you anything if you didn't feel fear. Now that you recognize it you can work together to over come it.

Love will prevail over fear!