When I'm not around him I feel less
When I can't see him I hurt inside
When I finally get to hold him I feel whole
When I can see him everyday it makes the harsh days worthwhile
In my life I've searched so very long to find the other half of myself
To actually have that part of my soul before the age of 40 makes a huge difference in how I view being an adult
I see so many people searching for what I have found
I use to be so disillusioned on what love was or if I would ever actually find it
I look back on my previous relationships and I see so many mistakes and so many bad decisions
I understand that your past is just a road map to your future
It gives you the tools you need to know when the right path is ahead of you
When that happens everything around you makes sense
It all comes to you like an "Ah Ha!" moment
For a very long time I grew up believing that I shouldn't allow a man to make me anything
I felt that I didn't need another person carrying anything for me or thinking that I needed them for anything
I felt that being independent meant that I could do for me and no one else could ever fill that other part of my life
Through my years of different relationships no one actually did
Which lead me to believe that all the while I was true in my thinking
That is until December 2008
I met someone that made me question my thinking
I met someone that made me stop in my tracks and do a self-inventory of my qualities, ambitions, dreams, and my overall makeup
I see now that it isn't making you less of a person to admit that another person makes you whole
It only makes you stronger
It only makes you more aware
It only creates a dynasty of emotional and spiritual support
So when you meet the right one don't run from the possibilities
In life when something is right for us it tends to scare us
That is because when you meet your soulmate the life clock starts truly ticking
You see that your immortality is now shared with another spirit
That person shows you how human you really are
He makes me see the truth of my life and the truth of the end, but with him the end seems brighter than I have been led to believe
The World Beyond My Eyes
Destiny is what you make it
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
The Space He Needs
The Space He Needs
In relationships there are moments when you have to re-evaluate the purpose of the bond. Issues may arise but if not approached the right way there can be mistakes made, which will only destroy the bond that has worked so well for you in the past.
As time goes on people change, things that use to be normal become more difficult, a person’s ability to handle situations before may require more effort as time goes on. Life separates or places closer together.
The belief in “Absence make the heart grow fonder” is a belief that tests the heart, the connection, and the persons involved, overall, it creates an understanding of life without one another. The secret to that test is both people learn a lesson separate from the one another. Once you are back in each other’s life, you are to apply what that lesson is by action and not just through words.
Love is only the connection, the work comes into play when people start appreciating their situation, their relationship, and the future that both of you are building.
The more you grow the easier the difficult obstacles become. You realize how effortless it is to deal with those problems that use to weigh so heavily in your life. Now you see that there is a stronger partnership and a better understanding of the strengths and weaknesses of you both.
Speaking from experience this is a great way to become one whole person when you realize what half you represent and what half they represent. Love doesn’t have to end, it just has to grow and become stronger, but it can’t get there alone, you have to step up and make the sacrifice.
Life without sacrifice isn’t living, it is existing.
In relationships there are moments when you have to re-evaluate the purpose of the bond. Issues may arise but if not approached the right way there can be mistakes made, which will only destroy the bond that has worked so well for you in the past.
As time goes on people change, things that use to be normal become more difficult, a person’s ability to handle situations before may require more effort as time goes on. Life separates or places closer together.
The belief in “Absence make the heart grow fonder” is a belief that tests the heart, the connection, and the persons involved, overall, it creates an understanding of life without one another. The secret to that test is both people learn a lesson separate from the one another. Once you are back in each other’s life, you are to apply what that lesson is by action and not just through words.
Love is only the connection, the work comes into play when people start appreciating their situation, their relationship, and the future that both of you are building.
The more you grow the easier the difficult obstacles become. You realize how effortless it is to deal with those problems that use to weigh so heavily in your life. Now you see that there is a stronger partnership and a better understanding of the strengths and weaknesses of you both.
Speaking from experience this is a great way to become one whole person when you realize what half you represent and what half they represent. Love doesn’t have to end, it just has to grow and become stronger, but it can’t get there alone, you have to step up and make the sacrifice.
Life without sacrifice isn’t living, it is existing.
Monday, January 3, 2011
The End Of The Line
Today I received some disturbing news about a friend that I’ve known for several years. Actually the friendship came into my life by a friendship made by his lover.
Over the years of knowing him I became close to him. There were things about him that I didn’t care for but nonetheless I still had a connection to him.
For several years this friend was fighting with the AIDS virus and it was always so painful to see him trying to maintain a strong face in times of pain and suffering.
There were times when I didn’t care much for him because of how he treated my best friend, but on the flip side, as a person I cared for him deeply. Over the years he became a permanent fixture in my life. It’s funny but he was there to offer support when my partner passed away, and now I’ve just been informed of his passing.
Life can deal out blows that at times can knock us down, but then we remember the blessing behind the pain. To live on earth is pain, its suffering, its losing people you care for, it’s losing things you’ve worked so hard to maintain, and then having to start from scratch. There are times when we pray for an earlier departure from all of the hell we endure daily, and then there are moments when we pray for more time to enjoy the blessings, or just that extra time to get it right.
When someone you care for dies it removes something from your spirit but replaces it with something stronger and wiser. It prepares you until the day comes when you are called home. The fear of death is strong; as long as that fears remains the Lord sends messages to you through other people, allowing you to feel that loss, allowing those loved ones to come to you through dreams, feelings, moments, and many other indescribable encounters that only you would understand.
That is his way of telling you that your journey doesn’t stop here, it begins here. So when you are nearing the end of the line, know that the line is ever stretching and your journey is ever growing, so don’t fear the unknown, embrace it.
Over the years of knowing him I became close to him. There were things about him that I didn’t care for but nonetheless I still had a connection to him.
For several years this friend was fighting with the AIDS virus and it was always so painful to see him trying to maintain a strong face in times of pain and suffering.
There were times when I didn’t care much for him because of how he treated my best friend, but on the flip side, as a person I cared for him deeply. Over the years he became a permanent fixture in my life. It’s funny but he was there to offer support when my partner passed away, and now I’ve just been informed of his passing.
Life can deal out blows that at times can knock us down, but then we remember the blessing behind the pain. To live on earth is pain, its suffering, its losing people you care for, it’s losing things you’ve worked so hard to maintain, and then having to start from scratch. There are times when we pray for an earlier departure from all of the hell we endure daily, and then there are moments when we pray for more time to enjoy the blessings, or just that extra time to get it right.
When someone you care for dies it removes something from your spirit but replaces it with something stronger and wiser. It prepares you until the day comes when you are called home. The fear of death is strong; as long as that fears remains the Lord sends messages to you through other people, allowing you to feel that loss, allowing those loved ones to come to you through dreams, feelings, moments, and many other indescribable encounters that only you would understand.
That is his way of telling you that your journey doesn’t stop here, it begins here. So when you are nearing the end of the line, know that the line is ever stretching and your journey is ever growing, so don’t fear the unknown, embrace it.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
He Walks The Walk
Young at heart but mature in spirit
That is the true makeup of a man
Someone that understands the needs of others as well as their own
Someone that reaches into the depths of their being to find what makes them special and shares with those around him
A man that can love truthfully and honestly without regret or condemnation
Someone that keeps his eyes open and his heart hungry
Someone that makes no mistake on where he is in his life and understands when he makes a mistake it's better for him to own it and not pass it on to the next person
Strength isn't only seen in how he carries his self, it's how he carries those around him
A man is someone that stands for what he believes in and knows that his responsibility lies in how he lives
A man is someone that understands that his reputation is created by the steps he takes in life not what he tells people about him
A man is someone that lives through actions and a minimal amount of words
So if you know someone like this, if you are someone like this, then keep being you and don't apologize for it
That is the true makeup of a man
Someone that understands the needs of others as well as their own
Someone that reaches into the depths of their being to find what makes them special and shares with those around him
A man that can love truthfully and honestly without regret or condemnation
Someone that keeps his eyes open and his heart hungry
Someone that makes no mistake on where he is in his life and understands when he makes a mistake it's better for him to own it and not pass it on to the next person
Strength isn't only seen in how he carries his self, it's how he carries those around him
A man is someone that stands for what he believes in and knows that his responsibility lies in how he lives
A man is someone that understands that his reputation is created by the steps he takes in life not what he tells people about him
A man is someone that lives through actions and a minimal amount of words
So if you know someone like this, if you are someone like this, then keep being you and don't apologize for it
Disaster (Song)
Disaster
1ST Verse
My mind just snapped back in focus
You’re still standing there yelling
I’ve gone through several levels
Of my understanding
From the beginning I told you
How much I can take
You’re testing my limits
Baby that’s a mistake
Bridge
I try not to go off
Because at times I can get lost
I don’t know what I’d do
So it’s best that I go
Let my feet hit the floor
Don’t stand in my way
I’m trying to keep you safe
Hook
I thought that we
Had a happily ever after
It’s a disaster
So acknowledge we
Need to call the pastor
Because it’s a disaster
2ND Verse
It’s Friday night
I wanna be alone
I go to my happy place
And I cut off my phone
Here you go knock knocking on my door
I try to ignore the pressure
I can’t take this no more
Bridge
I try not to go off
Because at times I can get lost
I don’t know what I’d do
So it’s best that I go
Let my feet hit the floor
Don’t stand in my way
I’m trying to keep you safe
Breakdown
Now don’t get me wrong
I’m no way insane
I know my temper
Baby this ain’t a game
Hook
©Greg J 01/02/11
1ST Verse
My mind just snapped back in focus
You’re still standing there yelling
I’ve gone through several levels
Of my understanding
From the beginning I told you
How much I can take
You’re testing my limits
Baby that’s a mistake
Bridge
I try not to go off
Because at times I can get lost
I don’t know what I’d do
So it’s best that I go
Let my feet hit the floor
Don’t stand in my way
I’m trying to keep you safe
Hook
I thought that we
Had a happily ever after
It’s a disaster
So acknowledge we
Need to call the pastor
Because it’s a disaster
2ND Verse
It’s Friday night
I wanna be alone
I go to my happy place
And I cut off my phone
Here you go knock knocking on my door
I try to ignore the pressure
I can’t take this no more
Bridge
I try not to go off
Because at times I can get lost
I don’t know what I’d do
So it’s best that I go
Let my feet hit the floor
Don’t stand in my way
I’m trying to keep you safe
Breakdown
Now don’t get me wrong
I’m no way insane
I know my temper
Baby this ain’t a game
Hook
©Greg J 01/02/11
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