He asked me for my hand and instantly my heart started to race. “Am I ready for this step?” is what I was thinking but my heart was screaming aloud “YES! YES! YES!” Some would call me crazy for falling in love so quickly, but others know me to be a person that follows their feelings and not their thoughts…much less the opinions of others.
Don’t get me wrong I understand that you must think through things before making a conscience decision, but when it feels right it just moves you to decide quicker. I looked at him and smiled, I could feel the intensity in his body…he was waiting for my response. I didn’t want to answer too quickly and then I didn’t want to take too long.
I thought over our relationship, all of the things that led to this moment. When we initially met it was as if we’d known one another forever. I couldn’t envision how my life was before he came into it. I know it all sounds cliché but he feels like my lifelong love. What would be the big deal with accepting his marriage proposal? If I love him like I do now, why would I fear taking that final step with him?
Then fear crept back into my heart. What if I say yes and this changes everything between us? What if we are fine the way we are? Would I be making a huge mistake by changing what has made us happy thus far?
I looked down at the ring; I could feel tears forming in my eyes. I looked up at him and saw that he was already tearing up and trying to be strong. It felt like he’d already known my answer before I did. I couldn’t contain the anticipation any longer. I wiped the tears from my eyes, took his hand and placed it on my heart and said…
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