Was I Wrong

In the beginning of love it is always that feeling of total bliss
Everything they say to you makes your stomach dance in excitement
Everything they do for you makes you happy and you mark those moments down so that you can always remember them when the day repeats on the next year
You find yourself making everything a anniversary because it was something new that you never had before
You start planning your future and all of the things you would like to do
You start making your plans for the future place you will live
You start picking out songs that will remind you of special moments

Some times when you are so caught up in the future plans you don't notice what's actually happening in your relationship
Some times the alarms are going off but you are so in la la land you don't pay attention to them
Their flaws seem like minor scratches on the surface, in your heart you feel that there is something deeper inside trying to get out
So you allow those flaws to remain

Before you know it you are chaning yourself to fit their place in life
You stop planning the things you set up for yourself because you want to see them shine brigther than ever
You stop hanging out in the places you use to frequent because you want to spend all of your time with them
You cut off those people in your life that you use to talk to all the time for fear of disrespecting the one you are with now

The changes are often and you don't really see them until you hit a road block
It's that road block that snaps you out of the fantasy
When you're eyes are completely open you start recognizing things in them that you don't like
You start figuring out where you fell short of your life and your plans for them
It's in the moment of a dead end you realize that you have reached the limit and you have no one but yourself to blame

Relationships aren't a waste of time, it is certain people that waste your time
When you start remembering how special you are and how original you are, you start to view that person in their actual light

Then those flaws become holes instead of scratches
Those little things that didn't bother you before annoy the hell out of you all the time
What you thought they had deep inside was just wishful thinking and you have created this hero out of nothing

Instead of totally loosing your perspective, you stop and rethink where you are and how you got there
You start taking back your time and replanning your future

The ideas that you had for the both of you may change and that's fine
Because as you change and they stay the same, it's obvious that they weren't right for you in the first place

You may ask yourself, "Was I wrong?" the answer is not really that cut and dry
It's never wrong to want the best for someone
It's never wrong to support someone
It's never wrong to give someone your time and attention
It's never wrong to want a beautiful future with a special someone

What is wrong is when they know they aren't right for you, yet they just tag along for the ride