To Chris from Greg

They say that if you speak it into existence then it will be. So I put this out into the universe, “I pray that the rest of my life keeps me with the man I am with today. I pray that we get the opportunity to live out the remainder of our lives together, being happy, learning, growing, experiences, laughing, crying, fighting, making up, and exploring with one another. I pray that I get to see him through his trials and tribulations; I pray that I can always be his safe haven in times of distress and pain. I want to be his angel that guides him throughout his day keeping him safe and protected from the world. I want him to be my partner when we are blessed to have more children. I want to share that experience of being a father with him. I want to get to the point in life when I forget so much because I’m old as hell and he remembers. I want to be able to play songs that remind us loving times when we are going through our downs. I want to wake up every moment to see him beside me (snoring loud as hell) snuggled and sleeping peacefully. I want to be his comforter when he feels the cold of the world. I want him to call me first when there is heaviness on his mind. When that day the world as we know it is over, I pray that there is truly an afterlife and we can live forever entwined in love and happiness. With his love I never fear, with his love I never doubt, with his love and I strong, with his love I am not without. For when others let me down, hurt me, lie on me, treat me unfairly, and do not give me what I deserve…I know that anything coming from him is genuine and authentic because it is all just for me. I have been a rock for myself for so long and now I can feel the weight of the woes falling from my heart and mind. I use to have a job to care for others more than myself, now I have no time to because he cares for me as much as he does. He can balance loving his family, his kids, and his friends while loving me abundantly. No matter the moment, we are love, no matter the situation, we are solution, no matter the obstacle, and we are victorious. Love isn’t given easily but it can be received. Trust is difficult to give out and rebuild, but once it’s there, nothing can change the purpose of the love you have built. December 12th 2009 I gave my heart to Christopher M. Watkins Sr. but the first time I saw him he already had my soul.