The World Beyond My Eyes

The World Beyond My Eyes
Destiny is what you make it

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Hunger For Happiness

From the moment we met I could sense the closing of the void
He makes parts of my life seem so familiar
I use to dwell on the idea that it was utterly impossible to find what people call..."Soul Mate"
I figured that people made this title up to keep the hope that there is a chance for true love
If more people thought that such a thing existed then the balance of emotion would always stay even
As I became older and more introduced to what the world actually offerred us in the way of a love life I was quickly turned against the very thought of having one person for the rest of your life
Marriage, kids, a dream home...those things just seemed so unattainable to me due to the fact that I was never really surrounded by people that believed in true love
I saw so many people with partners that seemed just right for them but I would see cheating, flirting, total disrespect to the foundation of love, relationship, and marriage
Becoming cold and distant seemed to be the only advantage to keep from getting your heart broken
The back lash to that thought is you become the one breaking hearts and destroying people's idea of true love
Many times I have comes across someone that viewed me as their one and only
Because I no longer believed in the myth I walked over their feelings and felt safe because I protected me from getting heart
It wasn't until I had my first taste of true love and then to have that true love break my heart that I realized what I'd done in my past
So from that moment on I re-invented my heart, I looked at my past lovers as experiences and not ex-lovers
It seems that if something is given such a horrible title, it feels horrible
If you take the time and re-evaluate what happened and use that experience as a guideline for your future then you can find a point in your heart to thank them for what they brought to your life and not view them as a mistake
After such a bumpy past and a jaded mindset of love I have found the one
I feel that "Soul Mate" not only a great title but a great feeling
I have this man in my life that makes me regret sleep because I want to stay under him and talk to him for eternity
I dread work because that is time spent away from him
I constantly worry about him
I want him happy all of the time
I feel protective of his feelings and his honor
I can't imagine functioning without him
Missing him is more important than being angry with him
He and I have created a love dish so devine that it soothes the hunger for happiness and I am no longer starving

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