The Bonds That Never Were

It's strange when you think about it
You grow up around these people and feel that there is a deeper connection
You hear how alike you are to them and that makes you feel that the connection is that much stronger
You suffer through pain, sorrow, good, bad, devastating, and unthinkable moments in life
You feel that through that you can build something even stronger
Then all of a sudden you see the truth
It can be ugly, it can be painful, it can be hurtful, and down right silly as all get out
When you step back and revisit the life you've lived, you realize how less and less important these people were in your life
You see that all you've done was support, look the other way, and allow them to use you until there is nothing left
Your back has been stabbed so many times that you become immune to pain, you become unaware when someone actually cares for you
The great thing about these experiences is that you eventually find someone that loves you for you
This person steps in and protects you from the pain that you've fought for years
They see the real you and holds you that much tighter
The saddness turns into strength and awareness
You see that those that try to break you are weak them selves
You see that these people cannot hold on to love because they barely love them selves
Your anger towards them turns into pity
You see that you are stronger than they are in so many ways
You realize that just because a bond is there it doesn't mean that everyone will respect it
You've been taken for granted for too long so now you want to break away from them
When you walk away from them you know in your heart that you will never see them the same
You realize that the lie was you were ever close in the first place
A spiritual awakening is when you realize that you are born alone and you will die alone, but you don't have to go through life alone
Enemies are in different shapes and forms
They can be family and friends
The most dangerous kinds are the ones that are in your life not by choice but by blood
The way to live and not allow those painful feelings to turn you bitter is to accept those people for what they are and respect the fact that you can never be close and could never let your walls down
When you walk away from them you can make up your mind that this decision is best for you all and life opens up for you
Hate is fueled by people that never truly say everything they feel and are afraid to allow vulnerability to show in the midst of those that want to hurt them
Being humble is when you accept your strengths and weaknesses
When you realize that you are merely human and you have the ability to do the most impossible
It took me many years to see that and accept it
Now I am a better person for it
Don't rush the discovery, allow time to groom you for it
That way when you get there you will learn from the past and you won't relive those moments again