Just Me...Simply

I am not perfect
I do not have all the answers
I cannot predict the future
I don’t know the best way to fix every situation
I don’t always have the best advice
I can’t explain why you are feeling the way you are feeling because I am not you
I can’t repair your life because it’s yours and not mine
I cannot fix your relationship because it’s yours and not mine
I can listen to your problems but I may not know what to say after you’re done
It feels so good to be able to admit these things and not feel like I’ve failed in some way
Trying to be everything for everyone else is a job that no one should take on
Just being who you are, flaws and all, is the best feeling in the world
I am moody
I am sarcastic
I am lazy
I get bored easily
I do have amazing qualities but to know me means to know that there are other parts of me
To love me is to accept those qualities
Be you…the real you, and those that stay around are the ones that truly love you

Me

I stood over the ocean and saw my reflection
It felt like a stranger looking back at me
I gestured to see if the reflection would mimic me
Yet it didn’t move
Then my heart started to pound
I was instantly terrified at this image I couldn’t stop staring at
It had its own personality
It moved when it decided to
It showed so much emotion
It didn’t hold back anything
Just then I realized that it was me, just the me I used to be
The me that stood out because of my mind
The me that did what I wanted to do
The me that had total control over my emotions
The me that had total control on my decisions
The me that gave all I had without the fear of giving too much
This was before the world attacked me
This was before I had to say good-bye to loved ones
Grief is a powerful adversary if you aren’t prepared to face it
At the same time it can be the fuel for strength you never knew you had

Look At You First

Closed mind…missed opportunities
Overly confident…missed interpreted as conceded
Very attracted…seen as thirsty or desperate
Frustrated with lonely…seen as difficult to be with
How often do we judge people for what we believe to be their issue?
How often do we actually take the time to figure out what’s really going on with a person?
Sometimes we can be so caught up in thinking we know so much that we don’t even realize how wrong we are about ourselves
We can sometimes project our internal flaws to people around us
We sit in judgment of others when in fact we are judging ourselves
Self-reflection is something that we must be very conscience of
Knowing ourselves more is the key to being able to truly read others
Let’s not throw stones out rented windows
Get your own house in order before offering your opinion on someone else’s

It's Yours...

When you can do nothing else…just stand
If it’s at all worth it… and it is, you will find that happiness again
It’s truly normal to have your up and down moments
The key to those moments is to trust and believe that they are just moments
Your happiness is the goal in life and should always be what you strive for
If you love yourself enough, you’ll know when someone loves you back
Even when they make mistakes, it doesn’t erase what they are or who they are to you
Giving up isn’t an option for life or relationship
Just about anything thrown your way can be faced and conquered
Believe in you and he will believe in you
Stand up and walk tall, he will support your balance
Speak truth from your lips and he will give you power to walk the walk
You are only as great as your next victory
So be victorious, strong, proud, and genuine
When they strip everything else away, they cannot take away who you are
Your story is your story, so you tell it and not everyone else
Your love is your love, so you fight to keep it
Who we are is what we do, not who they say we are

Decision Time

I’m split in two and I’m not sure of what to do
Should I stay? Should I go? The answer is, at this point, hard to know
In one future I see greatness for us both
A life of love and strength and spiritual growth
In the other future I see such misery and pain
Us not connecting and our flaws breaking us down and driving one another insane
There is so much love there, this I know for sure
From the beginning we thrived on each other leaving me wanting more
There have been obstacles but that was necessary
We both had to shed off our past to have less in our future arms to carry
Yet here we are at a crossroads and the decision isn’t easy or clear
Making the wrong one could be great or destroy us and that’s my biggest fear
Love isn’t enough and this I now understand
It takes communication, patience, loyalty, and trust but on the other hand
We are amazing people individually
If we could just get our shit together think of the power behind our unity

Scars

Standing in the mirror eyeing myself from head to toe
Not being conceded, just noticing my scars
Some visible and some inside
A trail of life in a reflection of glass
How do you tell someone’s present from their past?
When you can’t merely ask them their story
Though they lived it, there are always holes in the timeline
I stand looking at myself and in wonder I tilt my head
There is a scar over my heart
How long has that been there?
I wonder if it will ever heal
For each scar I see, I can understand how each of them make me feel
I have the choice to wear them or live them
I have the choice to own them or give them the power
When others see me, can they see my scars?
Do they notice their own?
Are our scars the attraction we feel when we meet someone and the vibe is real?
Are we lying to one another when we smile?
Is it just living past the scars or living in total denial?
No matter the case, scars have a place
Acknowledge them or don’t
Become a victim of them I won’t
Though I will give them their moment in the light
After their 5 minutes of fame I bid them good night

Forgiveness...

It was deep, it was dark, it placed a hole in my heart
Yet my heart still beats strongly
I was mad, I was sad, you told the truth and I was glad
But nevertheless it still hurts me
I see you there, sometimes I hate you then I care
Such a crazy thing these feelings
You want it to work, yet your actions made you a jerk
So I quietly sit and observe your actions
It’s still new, it’s still you, you’re sorry and it’s true
So forgiveness is on the rise
One day I will forgive, in peace we will live
But know this won’t happen again
If it does you know the deal, not joking I’m for real
I’ll walk away for our sake, but please make no mistake
Karma is truth and acts on swing wings
If you hurt someone it comes back to you and it stings