His Eyes Tell The Story

We sit and talk about emotions.
It's crazy moments like that which makes the decision to love him that more relavent.
He tells me his feelings and the entire time I'm looking into his eyes.
Since we've been together he has opened up more and more.
I sit back in total amazement at the progression of our relationship, yet it still feels like there is so much that hasn't been touched.
We are faced with so many different obstacles, yet we manage through by holding closer to each other and believeing in one another.
He wants his feelings to be understood so that there is no doubt in my mind that he is with me forever.
He will take me aside and just hold me without a word.
He will come and lay his head on my chest just to hear my heart beat.
He will take my hand in his and just admire the lines, the smallness of my fingers, and just admire the smoothness of the texture of my skin.
While I sleep I can feel his warmth covering me like the sun on a beautiful spring day.
Before he leaves for the work day he embraces me and kisses me firmly on the lips uttering the words, "I love you"
Once he is gone I am surprised with another note stating his feelings and his wish for me to enjoy my day.
During the day he keeps in contact with me, making sure that I'm all right, making sure that I am eating, making sure that I am relaxing, and most of all making sure that I know he misses me and loves me.
In doing all of this it makes my day, it makes me feel like life could never be better.
He does all of these things because it is who he is. It's not an act, it's not gestures to win me over.
He does all of these things and yet I never have the heart to tell him that his eyes tell the story and words aren't needed, but I am so glad that he chooses to express them to me.

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While He Sleeps

I wonder if he realizes how much I love him
I wonder if he could contemplate the debts of devotion I have for him
As I look at him I see my future
As I hold him I feel such security
As I place a soft but firm kiss upon his lips I share my life force with him
I place my fingers within his and the strength that generates from his makes me feel such comfort
I place my hand over his chest to feel his heart beat
The rhythm and the sound of it calms me
Even his snores create such a sound that it seems like music created just for me
Rubbing my fingers through his hair makes me feel like I can control his thoughts with each stroke
The warmth of his legs on mine blocks of the stubborn cold seeping through the windows
His strong back supports me as I lay across it, the rise and lowering of it makes my eyes fall heavy as if he is hypnotizing me with a dance
There is such peace surrounding him
There is such calm in his movement
There is such wonder as to what is going through his mind
Every once and awhile there is a smile on his face that makes me secretly giggle to myself
It amazes me that there is such a journey into imagination
I feel like I am experiencing so many new things
Just watching him, listening to him, touching him, and loving him while he sleeps

The Reason

After such pain why would I want to walk down the aisle?
After so many disappointments why would I want to keep trying?

It makes me wonder some times what it all means
I see so many people giving up and walking away
No matter what words of wisdom they receive they make up their minds to give it up

I face the fears and the doubts
I know that there are so many things I cannot live without

Why would I walk away from someone that gives so much and asks for so little?

There are symbols used to show love, appreciation, and trust

No symbol is greater than a circle

This symbol means everlasting
It is an ongoing cycle of strength, love, compansionship, friendship, partnership, and promise.

So after receving this symbol I now understand why I wanted to travel this journey again
This is why I want to face the fears and build the future
It is why I give my heart to him without doubt or regret

Once it was placed on my finger my life changed and I never looked back

It is the reason and I don't need convincing anymore.

He Is

He makes me smile
He makes me think
He makes me dance
He makes me melt with his wink

He is my man
He is my angel
He is my husband
He keeps me stable

I loose my mind
I want to cry
He builds me up
He makes me try

He holds my hand
He rubs my feet
He kisses my lips
He makes me weak

He is my dream
He is my pleasure
He makes me forget the past
He makes me want forever

Through all of this he needs me to
For him there is no limitation to what I'll do

I will die for his life
I will sacrifice as if I were his wife
I will stand up for his rights
I will hold his hand to help his fight

He is my love and I cannot exsist without him
He is my life and my heart can't beat without his

Through my journey never have I felt so sure
Throughout my love search never have I fealt something so pure

He is my man
He is my angel
He is my husband
He keeps me stable

And for that I will never leave his side!

I'm Going To Be Happy

Dayum! Just lost my job!
Dayum! Just lost my car!
Fuck! I lost my home!

It's strange though, I am still smiling and I'm still standing. I guess it's because I realize that these things are only temporary. They only serve a purpose for a moment in life.

I look pass what I thought I wanted and hold tight to what I need. A happy life with someone that loves me unconditionally and stands by my side no matter what.

When the road seems a little more bumpy than usual you still focus your eye sight on the purpose of you being on this road. Why fool yourself to believe that it will always be great and wonderful?

I understand my strength now that I need more than when I didn't appreciate it. Blinking during the storm will cause you to miss so much that is important to the transition of change.

I can't promise that I won't get upset, that I won't curse aloud, I can't promise that I won't get angry at my situation from time to time, but what I can guarantee you is the "I'm Going To Be Happy!"

The New Me

Why is it that when you change people start to back away from you?
When you were negative and lost to your own cause there were so many followers and so many supporters.
Once life has started dealing you a winning hand you start to loose those you thought were more important than most.

I guess it means that relationships are only as strong as their purpose and once you change it separates you from those old connections.
I've heard this before in so many different situations, but it speaks so true to us all.

A real friend will stick by you no matter what, a real friend will hold strong to you arm when the storm comes and when it calms.

A fair weather friend only shows up when it is beautiful outside for them. When the clouds start changing in your direction they flee and never look back.

If you have loss friends along the way of your new journey, don't fear the newness of your life. Embrace what is now and forget what was then.

The truth is that once you shed off the past, you shed off the baggage, and if friends fall along with the baggage then maybe that's what they were as well.

Walk proud and free on your new path and remember that you are worth the best and that goes for family and friends!

Keep growing and never look back!